Aren't they cute!
My two little heart breakers!
I love them to pieces
Friday, February 13, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Best thing I've heard in a while
Brandon, Kirstin and I were eating lunch. I was looking at FOB's website and listening to their latest music, then Brandon said the best thing ever.
Out of nowhere he just said...I like rock n roll, it's good! I thought that was the best thing ever. I always hoped he would share my love for music, and that comment absolutely made my day. He is so honest, maybe too honest sometimes. But I know that the comment came for an honest place that wasn't prompted.
He is a sweetie!
Out of nowhere he just said...I like rock n roll, it's good! I thought that was the best thing ever. I always hoped he would share my love for music, and that comment absolutely made my day. He is so honest, maybe too honest sometimes. But I know that the comment came for an honest place that wasn't prompted.
He is a sweetie!
Monday, February 9, 2009
Enlightenment
I had a good chat with Dad on Friday. I think that I have made a breakthrough with him. At least that is the way that it feels right now. Ask me in a few weeks and see if I feel the same way.
The problem that I face right now is that I don't know how to deal with Step-Mother. I know that she is a part of his life and there is nothing that I can do about it. Contrary to popular belief I don't want him to get a divorce. I guess I just want her to be a normal person and I don't think that is possible. I hate people that lie and put on an act just for attention.
To Step-Mother:
I am not that hard to get along with, you don't have to pretend that you are sick/injured for me to pay attention to you. In fact I can actually see through most of these games and they make me want to be around you less. Which, I am sure is counter productive to your ultimate goal. I believe that goal is for people to love and care for you. I guess what you fail to understand is that people can and do care for you without you being sick. For some reason, at some point in your life you were taught that the only way someone would love you is if you were sick. Or perhaps the only way you show love for someone is if that person is sick, so you think that the only way they can show that in return is if you are sick as well. Either way I think it is a really twisted sense of reality, and it makes being around you almost impossible. I don't want my children exposed to that sort of behavior. I don't want them to learn how to pretend to be sick. So now the problem is that I have to deal with you if I want a relationship with Dad. I am not sure how that is going to work, when the shear sight of you or sound of your voice makes me cringe. My guess is I am just going to have to get over myself and suffer through awkward holidays and get together's like the rest of the world. I was just hopeful that I wouldn't be one of THOSE people. Looks like that isn't possible at this point in time. Only time will tell....
The problem that I face right now is that I don't know how to deal with Step-Mother. I know that she is a part of his life and there is nothing that I can do about it. Contrary to popular belief I don't want him to get a divorce. I guess I just want her to be a normal person and I don't think that is possible. I hate people that lie and put on an act just for attention.
To Step-Mother:
I am not that hard to get along with, you don't have to pretend that you are sick/injured for me to pay attention to you. In fact I can actually see through most of these games and they make me want to be around you less. Which, I am sure is counter productive to your ultimate goal. I believe that goal is for people to love and care for you. I guess what you fail to understand is that people can and do care for you without you being sick. For some reason, at some point in your life you were taught that the only way someone would love you is if you were sick. Or perhaps the only way you show love for someone is if that person is sick, so you think that the only way they can show that in return is if you are sick as well. Either way I think it is a really twisted sense of reality, and it makes being around you almost impossible. I don't want my children exposed to that sort of behavior. I don't want them to learn how to pretend to be sick. So now the problem is that I have to deal with you if I want a relationship with Dad. I am not sure how that is going to work, when the shear sight of you or sound of your voice makes me cringe. My guess is I am just going to have to get over myself and suffer through awkward holidays and get together's like the rest of the world. I was just hopeful that I wouldn't be one of THOSE people. Looks like that isn't possible at this point in time. Only time will tell....
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