Progress...

Well the chat with Dad went better last night than I anticipated. I am hopeful that things will change. I don't want to give up on him. I am just so scared that he and I don't know how to relate to each other. Mom was always the buffer between us and she isn't around anymore to be that. He and I never learned how to talk to each other. All that we know how to do is fight. I just hope that we can be more than that. I don't want to have one of "those" relationships with him. I don't want to be another cliche about father/daughter relationships.
I am not giving up, it's just not in my genes. I won't give up, I love him too much. I may get frustrated and I may get angry, but I still love him and nothing will change that. He's the only Dad I have and I don't want to lose that.