Clarity

I've finally let go of the need to have people "like" me. As of late I have realized that the people that I so desperately want to like me don't matter. I am no longer going to "behave" myself around people that truly don't matter. I have spent too much of my life trying to convince these people that I am worthy of their love/affection.Those who I have tried to prove this to, don't care enough about me to like me for me, so I say F*&k them. If they don't like me for me then they aren't worth my time. I may not have a ton of friends, but the ones that I do have are the best I could ever want or need. I am done being someone I am not around people that don't matter. I will no longer going pretend to be someone I am not to get someone that I can't stand to like me.
I am not delusional enough to think that this new change in attitude is going to be easy, but it is necessary. I can't spend my life trying to make people like me. I am who I am and nothing is going to change that.
I know that I am not the easiest person to get along with. I know that I am stubborn, strong willed, I have a tendency to be an ass. Somehow through all of those character flaws I have managed to be caring, thoughtful, and kind. The people that matter understand that about me and overlook the more challenging aspects of my being. For that I am truly grateful.

The Monster Stands!

While drinking his bottle this evening the Monster decided to stand up and drink it!
My little boy is growing up!

The Monster is on the move

The pure joy in his face is unbelievable!

Look Ma! See what I've got!

The look of concentration on his face is priceless.

Well the monster has decided that he wants to walk. He has been practicing a lot lately. I am sure he will be walking solo before too long.

Knitting update

Well, I did well the first two days. I met my goal, but now I am two days behind. I have to get caught up if I was to meet my goal.

Knitting

I have set a goal for myself to get the monster's blanket finished. I am doing 25 rows a day, not hard to do, and it will be finished in 9 days. I completed the first day just fine. Now I only have 8 days left. I can do this....I can!

bad blogger

I have been really bad about blogging as of late. Things have changed for the better in the personal life/ family arena. This is a good thing and progress is being made. I am happy about that to say the least.
Brandon is now 3 years old! The monster is 10 months old and growing like a weed.
We are getting ready for vacay in about 10 days and I can hardly wait.
I will be posting about past events over the next few days. Birfdayness and such nonsense will have to be well documented.
stay tuned...

The Monster

We have coined Johnny the Monster. Rhi has always called him Johnster. We started calling him Johnster the Monster, mainly because he is so big, plus he is so chill that he isn't really a monster which is why it's clever. So now we've shortened it to just the monster. He is such a sweetie pie.
He's working on that walking thing everyday. Look at him move.